Now it if feels like my work at the corporate job was a lifetime ago. So much of my life back then was contrary to my truth – that is, who I truly am and who I’ve always been. Over and over again, I ignored and sometimes even shut out the messages that were trying to make their way into my consciousness.
Oftentimes during quiet moments, I would experience horrible ringing in my ears. The worst, though, was the clicking.
Oftentimes during quiet moments, I would experience horrible ringing in my ears. The worst, though, was the clicking.
I’d be sitting at my desk working out a schedule or writing an email, and when I paused, there it was: clickclickclickCLICKCLICKCLICK. It could be fast or slow, super loud or not. I didn’t know what the heck was going on! I just knew that if I stopped what I was doing, listened to it, and focused all of my attention on it, the noises would stop. I never thought about asking my doctor about the problem, because I was able to get it to stop on my own.
Indeed it was frustrating, but I just didn’t grasp the big picture. I wasn’t living in a way which promoted thinking in those terms. At first, I opted for the excuse that I was just beating up on myself—a super ego hammering—for living in a way that wasn’t bringing me joy. Then I wondered if someone or something was trying to communicate with me. I would repeatedly ask the source of the clicks to communicate with me in a way I could consciously understand. Clarity is a beautiful and funny thing.
That makes me chuckle now! Although I was on the right track, I wasn’t quite there. I had decided, on some level, to not see the point of stopping, listening and being still. However, that’s exactly what my spirit and my whole spiritual support team were trying to get me to understand.
Stopping, listening and being still to receive are critical to good mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health. Please don’t let yourself get to the point of physical discomfort from tinnitus, or any other physical ailment, to learn THAT lesson. Every once in a while, the clicks return and when they do, I stop everything and really listen.
Indeed it was frustrating, but I just didn’t grasp the big picture. I wasn’t living in a way which promoted thinking in those terms. At first, I opted for the excuse that I was just beating up on myself—a super ego hammering—for living in a way that wasn’t bringing me joy. Then I wondered if someone or something was trying to communicate with me. I would repeatedly ask the source of the clicks to communicate with me in a way I could consciously understand. Clarity is a beautiful and funny thing.
That makes me chuckle now! Although I was on the right track, I wasn’t quite there. I had decided, on some level, to not see the point of stopping, listening and being still. However, that’s exactly what my spirit and my whole spiritual support team were trying to get me to understand.
Stopping, listening and being still to receive are critical to good mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health. Please don’t let yourself get to the point of physical discomfort from tinnitus, or any other physical ailment, to learn THAT lesson. Every once in a while, the clicks return and when they do, I stop everything and really listen.
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